| question: am i your friend...or a loser? |
[15 Jul 2009|01:55pm] |
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well i'm just curious do you think i am your friend...or not? i'm curious i want to know...because according to a certain someone i wasn't friends with his friends...which doesn't make any sense to me...i opened up to you, i talked to you, i had conversations with you, and i drew you a picture (only a few got) and you still think i'm not worth your time to be a friend...i find that rather unfair...and i know i was never popular and never had many friends and i tried fitting it and things didn't work...
just tell me...i wanna know
are we friends or not?
~ Dragona
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| i'm not ignoring you... |
[08 Jul 2009|12:48pm] |
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jeez i'm not ignoring you i just don't feel good give me a break...i just want some time to myself so i'm not so stressed out today...i've been vomiting since yesterday and you think i would lie about that then you are a complete total ass...i would never lie about something so damn true...honestly please just leave me alone until you find a way to calm your ass down right now i just can't speak with you because you twist things from a nice convo into a way to hurt me...you are doing the same thing as my dad so right now we need to take some time apart from each other...i will talk to you when i feel like it i just can't talk to you ok? just let me be please? thank you
~ Dragona
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[01 Jul 2009|01:34pm] |
i know i'm a horrible person...then why bring up stuff that i can't understand i know i'm stupid and a bunch of other things...i don't understand what's wrong with me i'm just insane ok? just leave it at that this old, crazy person is insane...insanity runs in my mind so i dunno how to fix anything...talking leads to aruging etc, i dunno what else to do i'm just a person what more do you want from me?
~ Dragona
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| ENOUGH! |
[26 Jun 2009|01:21pm] |
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ok let's start...
i'm sorry that we broke up and i give you credit for the second chance but its not gonna work...the only reason you want me to forgive you is you think we can date again...i don't think i would look at you the same if we did get back together...i'm just trying to find middle ground so you don't end up hating me and i don't end up hating you...i'm trying to be a friend, i'm trying to get your stuff to you...just need to let me plan it and stop nagging me about it like an old hag...i just can't take this stress anymore i just want you to talk to me like a normal human being not like its both of our faults things didn't work out..i'm sorry things got messy between us i dunno when i can speak to you online again all you do is stress me out and make me feel like its all my fault to begin with...i'm sorry you have a rough time talking to me...what would you like me to do? as far as i can see...nothing
what i can suggest is...maybe about a year if we don't contact each other or maybe have small talk with each other maybe just MAYBE i could hang around you and become friends but its not that simple as it sounds...all i can is sorry and i know i'm not gonna be forgiven for alot of things...but what you did to me is something i can't forgive or forget...and no i'm not gonna say a thing like that to people what i would say is "hey i used to date him" and leave it at that...if its so tough talking to me and shit why keep doing it? all i can say is sorry that our relationship didn't work...i know you have feelings for me...but i just can't take you back so quickly...or at all
all i got to say is...good luck in life and i hope you become happy again
~ Dragona
P.S. i'll i.m. you when your stuff is ready to go
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| oh my freaking god... |
[22 Jun 2009|07:28am] |
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well for starters...
people must know at this point my ex and i are having issues correct...well the thing that annoys me is HE breaks into MY aim account and unblocks himself well let's see the reason i have you blocked is because i really don't feel like talking to you at this moment...everytime i do end up talking to you all i get is a bad feeling, feel like shit, start throwing up, etc...yea not fun stuff just the same that happened with my dad also i will talk to you when I feel like it...repeat WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT! i don't care if you need to talk or you want to talk to me...write me an e-mail, send me a letter, do something else...but honestly to break into my aim account and to unblock yourself so we can talk is pretty desperate...yes i know you still care but i really don't have any feelings for you anymore you pretty much treat me like a free ride and that's all you want...you just want to be with me so you don't have to do any chores and such...well now since you are away from this "horrible" apartment you can go see your friends which was the biggest bitch you had since you were here...i know you still love me but i don't think i love you in the same way i did while we were together but nothing was changing...you never wanted to go anywhere or do anything you just baraceded yourself in that room 24/7 most of the time so yea...now that you're away from my stressful place and you are with your mom and all your precious friends now you have nothing to bitch about except for the fact that i am a truly heartless person...if anyone...ANYONE was heartless in the relationship it was you...sorry to say...fine don't believe me ask any of your friends what happened most of them would probably believe me in a heartbeat...so there...anyways i know what was wrong in our relationship we never had communication at all...you just sat at your pc day in and day out with those giant headphones so when i would say something you would ignore me so that's why i never really said anything so yea...also most of the time i was angry or ticked off because you would be up on the pc at like 2am or so and it would keep me awake until i would go back to sleep...and then usually when the dogs are barking you would kick me out of bed to fix the fight...so yea...anyways i honestly don't think i could love you even if you did change for me and i know you won't...so yea good luck in life
~ Dragona
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